That’s me.
I promised you feelings and bad words today. I considered simply posting a list of every bad word I could type in 60 seconds, but I’m not up for the resulting spam.
The thing is, I wrote this long, feeling-y post and it needs to be edited. It really, really needs to be edited. I wrote it and I don’t understand parts of it. Because you know what? Feelings are hard. They don’t make any sense, and that’s why I generally shy away from them these days. I shy away on the blog, that is. In real life I go beyond shy, and stuff those pesky feelings way down and don’t let them out. Ever.
When will somebody invent a sarcasm font?
Of course I have feelings and I try to acknowledge them. Except for when it might make someone else cry, because I am a sympathetic crier. You cry, I cry, we all cry in our ice cream. Or something like that.
So anyway… I do have this story to tell, and because I believe there is a point to the story I will tell it here on the blog. But not today, because I may have:
A) Been very busy for the last few days doing altruistic and productive things; or
B) Lost my original draft/let the dog eat it/had a really late practice and I’m sure coach will tell you that’s the truth/every homework excuse ever, so I didn’t have time to edit; or
C) Squandered my editing time today doing this…
Instead of feelings, I have excuses. Or do I have feelings about my excuses? Or should I ask you to excuse my lack of feelings?
I wonder…
:: Do you zone out while your kids watch TV? Mine were supposed to be getting their daily allotment of screen time while I got some work done, when many minutes and many ounces of coffee later I realized I was still sitting there. In my defense, my kids are super cuddly, and Phineas and Ferb is funny.
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Yup… I am totally guilty of sitting there and getting sucked into the cartoons that they’re watching. Even worse is when I turn them on and the kids aren’t there to watch!
My kids are cuddly, too — and with Phineas & Ferb on Netflix, um, I might have watched something like 6 episodes yesterday.
And I can’t tell you the number of times that I’ve been driving in a car, with the Elmo pandora station blaring, where the kids have been asleep, or the number of times that I’ve turned the TV on for some background noise & had the Disney channel on, only to have the kids not even in the house.
Feelings are really, really hard — like, seriously difficult. I don’t envy you even trying.
Today I was totally zoned out while my kids played on my iPad. Or it may have been one on my iPad and one on my iPhone. I’m not sure, but probably it was something I can pretend was educational. The point is, I didn’t manage to do a single productive thing while they were playing.
I understand about long, feeling-y posts. I’ve written more than a few, only to delete them. Hope when yours is out, it feels cathartic.
For me, the messy, awkward ones that I have to battle with like a fist fight to get them to come out, sometimes end up being the best. I can’t wait to read it.
I’ve been left alone in a room watching Sesame Street many a time.
It’s impossible not to love Phineas and Ferb! Occasionally I zone out, but usually (especially this summer when my time is so limited) I try to focus and power through. Because the whole wake up earlier than the kids and get work done this summer thing? Didn’t quite work out.;)
I admit I cried during the Phineas and Ferb movie that premiered last summer (on TV). Seriously, cried real tears. And no, I was not PMSing. It is really quite clever and yes, I’ve been sucked in more times than I’d like to admit.
Good luck with the feelings / editing. Most of my feelings posts never see the light of day. Writing is cathartic but sometimes that’s all it takes.