Today I am breaking the rules. I can do that, because this is my blog. Bwahahahaha. I am in charge of everything that happens here. What a rush. Aside from the fact that I don’t understand most of what goes on inside my computer, or much about how to set up and manage my blog, I’m still in control. (She says, making Dr. Evil face)

Obviously, I feel the need for some control. I think that’s fairly common.

Oh, I mentiond the rules. Well, usually Wonder Why Wednesday is very light. While today will not be overly deep or complicated, I am asking you a real question. And hoping for some real answers.

Before we go too far, let’s establish that there is some sense of order in our house. We maintain a level of control over our schedule, discipline, and basic hygiene, among other things. My husband and I are still – mostly – in charge around here.

The inmates are not running the asylum. Yet.

But the reality is that, in life, we are all in control of very little. We take our chances every day. I’m not just talking life and death, although that’s clearly an issue.

I’m talking getting the crazy, Target Lady checker vs. the kind, older woman who makes polite conversation.

Getting a good waiter vs. getting the new kid.

Getting all green lights vs. hitting every red light on your way to an appointment.

You see my point, I’m sure.

I think the fact that so much is wildly out of control is why we crave control over the things that are within our power.

Recently I mentioned some things I’m trying to change. This is going to sound so stupid – I realize that – but although I knew, intellectually, that I control of making those changes, I was feeling very out of control.

I don’t know what happened between then and now, but at some point I was walloped upside the head and realized: HELLO, I can control these things.

I can make the changes I want to make. I have some power here.

I know I already wrote about my issues with food, but again I feel kind of stupid. I look at that post and see a person who was merely whining about the issues rather than taking some control.

So, as I may have mentioned, I have a few posts lined up to talk about what I’m doing to make changes. Changes regarding my weight, my health and fitness level, my spiritual life, my relationships (friendships and marriage), my parenting skills (or lack thereof), and my writing.

Now that I have a renewed sense of control, things are going to look a little different around here (Here being my home, my life. The blog is going to look pretty much the same.).

Tomorrow we’ll talk fitness. I have some fun news and you’re going to have a chance to play along if you want to, or you can just be a voyeur if you’d rather.